On the day I set in MAC for two month,a guy told me in a chit-chat something about his fleeting two months :I kissed cigarettes goodbye the first week I got here coz’ I don’t wanna be starved to death….In Mac,I am nothing but an ID number,anyone can replace my existence as long as he got my student card…I learned nothing but swallow letters till feeling fed up with and blush like a blue dog everywhere,say–asking favours of whoevers and bothering them whenever troubles come…
Cheers,anyway–he has got on the right track after all…That is exactly the way we survive "outside" :
Fall away from your past,
Forget who you are ,or rather,remain self-respect at the very bottom of your heart and kick self-importance away to the coldest hell .
And always get ready to ask for help anytime….
Finally, regard yourself as a huge huge empty container and just take in as much experience as you can , no matter sweet or bitter and just try to suck the nutrition even out of craps to better your own growth…
As I am studying Social Identity for my Inquiry course, I know to some extent ,international students ,as part of minority, will remain as outgroup members for quite a long time esp. for East-Asian students as we tend to bunch up as relatively secluded small circles due to our dominant core culture.
然而–psycho group里的一个满嘴谎话，颐指气使，目中无人，傻*+草包的老鼠屎似的女生坏了一锅粥，她的不负责任和拖延连累了全组的平均分，谁都明白是怎么回事。我和另外一个女生声讨了她，可是余下三个人，在那傻* 逃课不在场的状况下，还装的跟黑手党党徒似的，just remian in some aquiescent silence.还说什么，that’s OK,we did not bad, just small mistakes….WHY???
于是我想象校园里有两个极端，惶惶 和 晃晃…
Man, I’m telling you,my culture and my education background told me to be strict with acdamic staffs and I don’t care what you think…I just wanna tell you, it costs me a lot to be able to sit here and I don’t wanna waste my life either….Everybody gets busy in University,you are not the unique while I am not an exception and so —get all your excuses full of platitudes to the hell !!!Show me if I could trust in you again!!
Now I am back to struggle for 2 presentations….I won’t take coffee to stay up,it really hurts~
And above all, I have suffered for one week to finally kiss coffee goodbye and I do not want to take another torture.
Coffee is much similar to drugs while my experience to get rid of it is exactly another typical case of classical conditioning .
Well….swim in the journal articles for this weekend~ @_@